darling wendy

9:45pm: movies
a clockwork orange, 24 hour party people.
velvet goldmine, party monster, garden state, breakfest on pluto, hedwig and the angry inch, tron, lord of the flies, american beauty, the doors, pulp fiction, to kill a mockingbird, spirted away, sin city, blow, sid and nancy, amile, amadeus, and more

9:45pm: music
center>A-Alien Sex Fiend
ac/dc
-aha

B- Bach.
beethoven
Bauhaus
beatles
benny benassi
bikini kill
Bjork
billy idol
bitch and the animal,
black sabbith
brian eno,
BT
buzzcocks

C- cab calloway
the cars
chicks on speed
the clash
Collide.
coldplay
Combichrist
the cramps
Crystal Method
the cure
cyndi lauper

D- the damned
david bowie
DDR
dead or alive
Def lepord
depeche mode
dead kenndys
Dj Tomcraft
the doors
the dresden dolls
duran duran
the distillers

E- Echo and the bunnymen
Eurythmics

F- Fleetwodd mac
fred astaire & ginger rodgers
Frou Frou

G- gary glitter
the germs
guns n roses

H- Heart
hedwig and the angry inch

I-iggy pop
ima robot

J-Joan jett & the black hearts
johnny cash
joy division
judas priest
Jack Off Jill.
L- le tigre
lou reed

M- madonna
mamas and the papas
marilyn manson
mindless self indulgence
ministry
the misfits
motley crue
motorhead

N- new order
new york dolls
nick cave
nico
nine inch nails

0-orgy
ozzy osborne
offspring

P- pat benatar
the pixies
placebo
Placebo
The PeppermintCreeps
the police
polysics
powerman 5000
prince
prodigy

Q-Queen
queen adreena

R- railer
rammstein
rolling stones
roxy music
Rob Zombie.

S-sex pistols
the shines
siousxie and the banshees
slade
soft cell
spinal tap
Skinny Puppy
T-
talking heads
trex
tears for fears
telepopmusilk
twisted sister

V- velvetgoldmine
velvetunderground
venus in furs
W-
White strips

9:45pm: i like
Fashion,
Music
Mohawks
Love
Drugs
Alcohol
Movies
Dates
Nights
Piercing
Tattoos
Ladies
Gentlemen
Pictures
Fake Eyelashes
Art
Bike Riding
Cars
Champage
Beer
My Cat (Spamie)
Makeup
And anything else you little mind might think of,....

9:44pm: i hate
i hate:

-clothes that are too big or too small on me
-being cut off in line
-splinters
-spiders ( im getting help though)
-zits and pimples ( which i never get)
- spider bites
-chipped nail polish
- dirty towels
- dirty dishes

-eyelash glue
-songs with no meaning
-pushy people
-thick headed people
-stinky fish tanks
-feeding live animals to other animals,
-papercuts
- screwed up makeup
-people who cant put makeup on right
-people who yell @ me for wearing makeup
-being honked at
-dried out pens
-bad hair
-torn tights
-mix match socks
-strange men talking to me on the back of the bus
-people chewing with their mouths open
-stalkers ( bad creey ones who follow me, i like the good ones who worship me!)
-dirty dishes
-dirty clothes
-empty packs of smokes
-empty ashtrays
-empty cups of coffee
-empty wallet
-empty fridge
-empty cat bowl
-broken headphones
-broken CD players
- scrached CDs
- lost CDs
-friends that are far away
-being broke
-being poor
-fighting with family
-fighting with friends
- being late
-being too early
- cannot think of anything to write/draw
- too screwed up to play pool
-being too screwed up to run in heels ( happend only once!)
-unshaved legs
-not checking my email in days and finding no new -messages

-and the rest you can think of yourself

4:24pm: Kingdom Of Fear.
( okay i can spell i just cant type as fast as id like to but you all get my point!)
yes once again,..well i think im getting too adicted to this thing,.... what ever , so anyways today was much much better, i swear i just need to say away from - energy and just be more + about things, because things could always be worse, i dont care who you are there is always something worse. and lucky for me im in a + mood right now so your all lucky,... argh, my glasses are caked in hair spray, screw it their comming off, well yes, okay, so im kind of at a fork in the road in my life, its kind of likea mid life crisis only,... im not mid in my life,... i guess im jsut kind of starting out,so the thing is what am i going to do, how the hell am i going to end up in the next 10-20 years? this is what i really need to think about, im going back to school in a few months that feel like forever, but im going to be taking classes in autobody repain and paint, so .... shit ive gotta go ill write more later
ciao

wendy

1:29am: late night heart break
i swear, one thing goes right, 10,000 things will always go wrong, i can't keep enough memory in my head to write all my thoughts that have been going on for the past few days, but they are harsh, loving, hurt, caring, dissipointed, ect.ect. no body said it was easy, but no one said itd be hard,. i guess that works for everything, life ,relationships, friends... i dont know, im too scatter brained to even think about what i was going to write,well okay, uhm,.. so thing have been going well, quit drugs and blad de blah, going back to school,in a few months but since im not going untill dec.- jan. i dont really have a damn thing to do anymore, i dont have the motovation to get a job, ( like anyone wants me) and, well today i really found out who ( or lack of ) my friend(s) are, today, well my life has been a complete failure. everthing that i had going 8 months ago, i never thought id be here, doing not a fucking thing, i have been fighting with people all night, about age, and lying, and that what a horrible person i am , and that i cant be trusted because someone found outmy age and started telling some people, ( which ill hunt down ans shoot) some one i really really liked is pretty much afraid to touch me now, ( but i guess its for the best) but my heart feels like its been steped on, spit on, thrown in to traffic, pissed on ect. so okay,well theres 2 reasons not to live, GREAT! oh yeah,my life is the BEST! you know whati should never get my hopes up, im just setting my self up for failure, i always have, i cant imagine having a child and how much their lifes would be shit,
As well, i figured out that i can never have a relationship ever,... one, i always date someone out of my leauge or someone who just likes me and i dont really like them, two, while datingthat person, 2+ people deide to tell me that they like me,.... three,i can never talk to someone when really need to say something important, or even a simple fight they think its all over and that 'were never gonna be friends because i hate them' yeah right, no one ever wants to work out their problems, EVER, they just want the quick way out, i just want someone who wants to stay in the long haul, even a fucking friend over a year would be nice! i dont even know if i can have that! i swear. oh yeah and my age! oh dear me dear me!
god forbid that you talk with someone a little older than you, ( okay, some people you know who you are, you have treated me great, even when you know my age, but this ones for the dumb shit shallow motherfuckers out there) jesus harmony christ! i get soo much shit for my age its not even funny, so i usally lie about my age, and when they do find out there even more creeped out and/or pissed off, i dont get it, why is age such a taboo? i know that the fuzz is cracking down on a lot of stuff, but shit, is it really gonna kill you for talking to me? pokay yes i dont look my age, i take advantage of it, okay, im smarter than most people my age, yes i take advantage of it, okay im a really great person to hang around, i listen, i talk i have a decent convo. and im not a dumb shit, YES I TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT, i swear all i get these days are single serving friends, THIS IS WHY I END UP IN A MENTAL HOUSE, i cant fucking stnad myself,. its drives me crazy that people hate me so much, but i try so hard for that not to be the case, i just want everything to be okay, and who can i talk to this about,.. well lest see, right ow all i can talk to is a computer, way to go! i think things will go better this weekend,.. i hope, a gram and a game of croquet should make me feel a little better, well im hoping so,. its kinda late and ive got to get up before noon tomorrow, so i think if things get worse ill tell you all about it, hahaha yeah fucking right, i know something gonna go wrong i fucking know it, and i cant fucking wait, because if it does i better be locked up in the crazy bin or dead. i dont know what will happen,
until lteh rain comes dear dear livejournal,
g'nite.
-w